Derdim fakirlik de\u011fil. O bizde baba mesle\u011fi. Benim derdim Niyazi. \u00d6mr\u00fcmde b\u00f6yle yalan adam g\u00f6rmedim. Patron yokken sallana sallana bir koli ya al\u0131r, ya almaz; patron gelince san\u0131rs\u0131n pehlivan. Bir aya\u011f\u0131yla kanepeyi, di\u011feriyle i\u00e7i dolu ceviz sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00fcr\u00fcklerken kalan evi de tek kolla ta\u015f\u0131r. Teri bile yalandan \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131r. Kayk\u0131la kayk\u0131la y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fck\u00e7e i\u00e7im s\u0131k\u0131\u015f\u0131r.
Dedem anlat\u0131rd\u0131. Bir zaman \u0130stanbul\u2019da insanlar\u0131n y\u00fck ta\u015f\u0131mas\u0131n\u0131 yasaklam\u0131\u015flar. \u00c7ek \u00e7ek arabalar\u0131 peyda olmu\u015f her yanda. Niyazi o zaman ya\u015fasa araban\u0131n i\u00e7ine yerle\u015fir, kendini de bana \u00e7ektirirdi. Enayiyim ya ben! \u0130\u00e7imden hi\u00e7 susmam, y\u00fcz\u00fcne gelince bir \u015fey diyemem. Zaten ne desen \u015fakayla \u00e7\u0131kar i\u015fin i\u00e7inden. Onun \u015feytan t\u00fcy\u00fc benim derdim olur. Elma
kurdu gibi yer i\u00e7imi Niyazi.
En bildik numaras\u0131; y\u00fcznumara. Gitmeden duramaz. Otuz be\u015f dakika, hi\u00e7 mi s\u0131k\u0131lmazs\u0131n be adam? Havuzdan ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z para e\u015fit. Bu e\u015fitlikse tabii! Onun y\u00fcznumaras\u0131n\u0131n pay\u0131n\u0131 nas\u0131rdan ellerimle ta\u015f\u0131r\u0131m. Urgan\u0131n yerlerinin omzumda a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131 yoldan y\u00fcr\u00fcr ayakyoluna. En \u00e7ok da s\u0131r\u0131tarak \u00e7\u0131k\u0131\u015f\u0131 can\u0131m\u0131 s\u0131kar.
Ge\u00e7enlerde patrona \u00e7\u0131tlatacak oldum; kestirdi, att\u0131. \u201cNiyazi \u00e7al\u0131\u015fkan \u00e7ocuk! Yak\u0131\u015f\u0131yor mu sana Mustafa?\u201d dedi. Yesinler Bursa beyini! G\u00f6ren de hamal ba\u015f\u0131 de\u011fil, ba\u015fbakan san\u0131r. Dillere bak! B\u0131rak, git diyor \u015feytan. \u015eeytana uymak zengin i\u015fi! \u0130ki \u00e7ocuk evdeki koltu\u011fu, Behiye de ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131n etini yer. Sormaz kimse derdi ne bu adam\u0131n! Bir tek R\u00fcstem dinler beni. R\u00fcstem mahallenin dilencisi. Setba\u015f\u0131\u2019ndaki y\u0131k\u0131ld\u0131, y\u0131k\u0131lacak evlerin hepsi onun. S\u0131valar\u0131ndan tutar, b\u0131rakmaz onlar\u0131. En \u00e7ok da k\u00fct\u00fcphanenin kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndaki darac\u0131k, iki katl\u0131, mavi evi sever. Onlarla konu\u015fur. Sar\u0131 s\u0131val\u0131 evin k\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 tulumbac\u0131lar ka\u00e7\u0131rm\u0131\u015f; mavi, y\u0131k\u0131k evde her sal\u0131 kekemeler toplan\u0131rm\u0131\u015f, balkonunun demirleri sarkan viranede de kusur helvalar\u0131 yenirmi\u015f. Kusurlar\u0131n\u0131 kutlarm\u0131\u015f c\u00fcmle insanc\u0131k. \u201cBilmiyorum da hissediyorum,\u201d derdi, \u201cEvler bana ba\u015f\u0131ndan ge\u00e7enleri anlat\u0131r. G\u00f6z\u00fcmde birden canlan\u0131verir oradaki insanc\u0131klar. Ger\u00e7ek d\u00fcnyada yok da i\u015fte. Ben \u00f6yle seviyorum. Terkedilmi\u015f bir eve bak\u0131nca orada y\u00fcr\u00fcyen eski insanlar\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcyorum. Uzun elbiseler, b\u0131\u00e7k\u0131n delikanl\u0131lar, k\u00f6\u015fede a\u011flayan \u00e7ocuklar\u2026\u201d R\u00fcstem de bir \u00e7e\u015fit! Baca\u011f\u0131n\u0131n tekini \u015eemdinli\u2019de b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015f. Elinde eskilikte kald\u0131\u011f\u0131 harabelerle yar\u0131\u015f\u0131r bastonuyla o k\u0131r\u0131k
basamaklar\u0131 tek ayak t\u0131rman\u0131r. Az konu\u015fur. Ge\u00e7enlerde merdivenleri kan ter i\u00e7inde \u00e7\u0131karken \u201c\u015eu aya\u011f\u0131m durayd\u0131 da fazla y\u00fck\u00fc ben ta\u015f\u0131yayd\u0131m,\u201d dedi. Derdimden utand\u0131m. Meyhaneye gidip iki \u00e7ay barda\u011f\u0131 rak\u0131 yuvarlad\u0131m.
Ta \u00e7ocukluktan beri bilmem lafla \u00f6z\u00fcr dilemeyi. Ertesi g\u00fcn\u00fc kitap\u00e7\u0131n\u0131n oradaki tost\u00e7udan yar\u0131m ekmek yapt\u0131r\u0131p mavi k\u00f6\u015fke gittim. Yerde yat\u0131yordu. Hem konu\u015ftum, hem oturaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131z kartonlar\u0131 yere dizdim. Elimle tozunu ald\u0131m.
\u201cYar\u0131n \u00c7ar\u015famba\u2019da senin banka yak\u0131n bir evi ta\u015f\u0131yaca\u011f\u0131z. \u00d6m\u00fcr t\u00f6rp\u00fcs\u00fc o zaman da film \u00e7evirirse derim: \u201cPatrondan korktu\u011fun kadar Allah\u2019tan korkmuyon Niyazi?\u201d
Ses \u00e7\u0131kmad\u0131. Yine bo\u015f konu\u015ftum, diye kendime k\u0131zd\u0131m. Evini ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m birinin verdi\u011fi radyoyu getirmi\u015ftim. Onu a\u00e7t\u0131m. Radyoda tam da Hamal Ali \u00e7al\u0131yordu.
\u201cBu bizim t\u00fcrk\u00fcm\u00fcz olsun R\u00fcstem,\u201d dedim. D\u00fcrtt\u00fcm, \u00e7\u0131t yok. Benim \u015fakalar Niyazi gibi olmaz tabii. Adam kayg\u0131s\u0131z. R\u00fcstem neden sonra \u00f6ks\u00fcre t\u0131ks\u0131ra uyand\u0131. Tuhaf tuhaf bakt\u0131. Kim bilir beni kime benzetti! Sucuklu tostla beraber parmaklar\u0131n\u0131 da yedi. O g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedik\u00e7e doydum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ertesi g\u00fcn ben a\u011f\u0131r, Niyazi pahada a\u011f\u0131r y\u00fckleri ta\u015f\u0131rken birden me\u015fhur kar\u0131n a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131 ba\u015flad\u0131. Y\u00fcznumaras\u0131na y\u0131ld\u0131zl\u0131 pekiyi verdim. Ne kadar da ger\u00e7ek\u00e7i a\u011fr\u0131t\u0131yordu. Zebil oldu Niyazi buralarda. Koy sahneye, al alk\u0131\u015f\u0131! \u0130\u00e7imden verdim, veri\u015ftirdim. Bu sefer otuz be\u015f dakikay\u0131 da ge\u00e7ti. Bank\u0131n oraya i\u015fini kuran R\u00fcstem\u2019e el ettim.
\u201cBizimki gene k\u00f6\u015fk\u00fcne kuruldu,\u201d dedim, g\u00fcld\u00fc.
Birka\u00e7 k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck kutuyu da o ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131. En son art\u0131k \u00e7ald\u0131m kap\u0131y\u0131.
\u201c\u00c7\u0131k art\u0131k!\u201d dedim, bir de yalan savurdum: \u201cTa\u015f\u0131d\u0131k evi!\u201d
Ge\u00e7en sefer y\u00fck ta\u015f\u0131n\u0131rken o kamyonun yan\u0131nda iki b\u00fckl\u00fcm durmu\u015f dondurma yiyordu; berikinde de \u00e7at\u0131 aras\u0131nda sigaras\u0131n\u0131 t\u00fctt\u00fcr\u00fcyordu. O \u00f6yle da\u011fda ta\u015fta saklan\u0131p karn\u0131n\u0131 tuta tuta k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcl\u00fcnce onun kaytard\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 fark etmem ya ben! Hamal enayisi! Of Niyazi, of! \u00c7ald\u0131m gene, kap\u0131 duvar! \u00d6m\u00fcr t\u00f6rp\u00fcs\u00fc ki ne t\u00f6rp\u00fc! R\u00fcstem\u2019e dedim:
\u201cElimden bir kaza \u00e7\u0131kacak. Al \u015fu adam\u0131 da getir a\u015fa\u011f\u0131. Kanepeyi bari beraber ta\u015f\u0131yal\u0131m. Donuma kadar terledim.\u201d
Ne gelen var ne giden! \u0130\u00e7ime kurt d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc, bu seferki korkudan. Bir \u015fey olmas\u0131n o\u011flana, daha yirmi be\u015finde. D\u00f6nd\u00fcm, itekledim kap\u0131y\u0131; kilitli. Evin sahibine s\u00f6yledim. O da seslendi, yok! En son kap\u0131y\u0131 k\u0131rd\u0131k. Niyazi yerde cans\u0131z yat\u0131yor. Hastaym\u0131\u015f me\u011fer. Kanepeyi patronla indirdik. Hamal k\u0131sm\u0131n\u0131n yas\u0131 da y\u00fckle.
Sa\u011f\u0131 solu arad\u0131m. H\u0131s\u0131m\u0131 akrabas\u0131 da hak getire. Cenazesiyle ben u\u011fra\u015ft\u0131m. Utand\u0131m ya yine de s\u00f6ylendim:
\u201cTabutunu da bana ta\u015f\u0131tt\u0131n!\u201d<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Derdim fakirlik de\u011fil. O bizde baba mesle\u011fi. Benim derdim Niyazi. \u00d6mr\u00fcmde b\u00f6yle yalan adam g\u00f6rmedim. Patron yokken sallana sallana bir koli ya al\u0131r, ya almaz; patron gelince san\u0131rs\u0131n pehlivan. Bir aya\u011f\u0131yla kanepeyi, di\u011feriyle i\u00e7i dolu ceviz sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00fcr\u00fcklerken kalan evi de tek kolla ta\u015f\u0131r. Teri bile yalandan \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131r. Kayk\u0131la kayk\u0131la y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fck\u00e7e i\u00e7im s\u0131k\u0131\u015f\u0131r.Dedem anlat\u0131rd\u0131. Bir […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":2269,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[26],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.yasamsanat.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2268"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.yasamsanat.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.yasamsanat.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.yasamsanat.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.yasamsanat.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2268"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.yasamsanat.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2268\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2270,"href":"https:\/\/www.yasamsanat.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2268\/revisions\/2270"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.yasamsanat.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/2269"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.yasamsanat.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2268"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.yasamsanat.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2268"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.yasamsanat.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2268"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}