\u0130\u015fyerimizin de\u011fi\u015fmeyen birer par\u00e7alar\u0131 gibiydik. Her g\u00fcn ayn\u0131 ki\u015fi, ayn\u0131 e\u015fya, ayn\u0131 y\u00fczlerdi g\u00f6rd\u00fcklerimiz. De\u011fi\u015fen tek \u015fey, her maa\u015f\u0131n gelmesiyle \u00e7o\u011fumuzun gelecek ay\u0131 nas\u0131l getiririz kayg\u0131s\u0131ndan k\u0131zaran, elmac\u0131k kemiklerimizin haliydi. Ayba\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n gelmesini hi\u00e7 istemezdik.
Biz bordro mahk\u00fbmlar\u0131, her ay kesintisiz yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z, bankalar\u0131n kredi kartlar\u0131n\u0131 su ve elektrik faturalar\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6demekti. Hem \u00f6dentilerimi \u00f6demek, hem ba\u015fka i\u015flerimi g\u00f6rmek i\u00e7in, i\u015f yerinden \u00f6\u011fle paydosuna ek, bir iki saat izin alarak \u00e7ar\u015f\u0131ya \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131m. Hani mecbur olmasam diyorum \u00e7ar\u015f\u0131 denen merete!
B\u00fcy\u00fck kentlerin bu amans\u0131z ac\u0131mas\u0131z sosyal bask\u0131s\u0131ndan kurtulmak nerdeyse imk\u00e2ns\u0131z. Orta direk denen k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck esnaf, i\u015f\u00e7i memur, hepsinin kayg\u0131s\u0131, sevinci, kederi ayn\u0131 say\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131. Bunlar\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcne d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcne Bankalar Caddesi\u2019ne do\u011fru y\u00fcr\u00fcmeye ba\u015flad\u0131m.
Yol boyunca, kiminin ne\u015feden, kiminin sudan bahanelerle kahkaha atanlar\u0131, evhaml\u0131 ad\u0131mlarla ko\u015fu\u015fturanlar\u0131, bastonuna dayanm\u0131\u015f ta\u015fl\u0131 tarla yolcusu ihtiyarlar\u0131, isterik bak\u0131\u015flarla \u00e7evreyi rahats\u0131z eden kurtlar\u0131, i\u015fsizlik kayg\u0131s\u0131yla dola\u015fan insan seli i\u00e7inde akarken, bir de bakt\u0131m ki; Ziya Pa\u015fa Park\u0131\u2019ndan Kale Kap\u0131s\u0131\u2019na gelmi\u015fim. \u00c7oktand\u0131r u\u011framad\u0131\u011f\u0131m yar\u0131 uykulu ayakkab\u0131 boyac\u0131s\u0131, \u015eekerci Dede\u2019yle g\u00f6z g\u00f6ze geldik.
Kale Kap\u0131s\u0131\u2019n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde cami cemaati, onlar\u0131n az ilerisinde evine ekmek g\u00f6t\u00fcrmek i\u00e7in i\u015f bekleyen \u0131rgatlar, hemen yan\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131nda de\u011fi\u015fmeyen nakaratlar\u0131yla ba\u011f\u0131ran sokak sat\u0131c\u0131lar\u0131\u2026
Birileri buraya \u00e7ekerek mi getirdi, yoksa ben mi geldim? Bunun bile bilincinde de\u011fildim. Ama tek bildi\u011fim, arada bir u\u011frad\u0131\u011f\u0131m boyac\u0131yd\u0131. Boyac\u0131n\u0131n sa\u00e7\u0131 y\u0131llard\u0131r ayn\u0131 beyazl\u0131ktayd\u0131. \u00c7ocuklara da b\u00fcy\u00fcklere de \u015feker verdi\u011finden, ona herkes \u015eekerci Dede diyorlard\u0131. \u00c7ocuklar\u0131n \u015eekerci Dede\u2019si bizim de dedemiz olmu\u015ftu.
\u015eekerci Dede, g\u00f6zlerini s\u0131k s\u0131k yumuyor, uykusuz oldu\u011funu hemen fark ettiriyordu.
Beni g\u00f6r\u00fcnce g\u00f6zlerini k\u0131p\u0131\u015ft\u0131rarak y\u00fcz\u00fcme bakt\u0131. Yan\u0131ndaki iskemleye oturdum. Bir terlik uzatt\u0131. Verdi\u011fi terli\u011fi aya\u011f\u0131ma giyerken o da ayakkab\u0131lar\u0131n ipini \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcp boyamaya ba\u015flad\u0131. Boyama i\u015fi bitip i\u015f cilalamaya gelince, \u201cBirazc\u0131k bekleyeceksin, vakit geldi\u201d dedi.
Hemen yan\u0131ndaki po\u015feti kapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi, Kale Kap\u0131s\u0131\u2019n\u0131n duvar\u0131na t\u0131rmand\u0131. Ben merakl\u0131 g\u00f6zlerle onu izliyordum. O po\u015fetin i\u00e7indeki ekmek k\u0131r\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131, duvar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcne serpti. \u00d6nce birka\u00e7 ser\u00e7e geldi. Ser\u00e7eler birka\u00e7 hecelik \u00f6t\u00fc\u015flerini s\u0131kla\u015ft\u0131r\u0131nca, duvar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fc bir anda ku\u015flar karnaval\u0131na d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. S\u00fcr\u00fcyle g\u00fcvercin, bir o kadar da \u015fehir kumrusu, serpilen yemleri i\u015ftahla yemeye ba\u015flad\u0131lar. \u015eekerci Dede elini aln\u0131na g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcp ku\u015flara iyice bakt\u0131. Kendi kendine, \u2018Allah Allah, bizim yelpesek yok\u2019 dedi.
Ben onu izlerken, \u2018\u015eu \u015eekerci Dede ne garip adam\u2019 diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm. Sevgisini ikiye ay\u0131rm\u0131\u015f, en fazla ku\u015flar\u0131, sonra \u00e7ocuklar\u0131 seviyordu. Herkes onun garip fikirlerine ortak olup konu\u015fmak istiyor,
fakat o, \u201cBen ne bileyim, ben ne anlar\u0131m\u201d gibi s\u00f6zlerle ge\u00e7i\u015ftiriyordu. Yan\u0131ma d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde y\u00fcz\u00fcndeki ifadeden ezik ama sevin\u00e7ler i\u00e7inde y\u00fczd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6rd\u00fcm.
Hemen konu\u015fmaya ba\u015flad\u0131.
\u201cBir g\u00fcn \u015fu yandaki park\u0131n i\u00e7inde yaral\u0131 bir g\u00fcvercin buldum. San\u0131r\u0131m bir \u00e7ocuk sapanla yaralam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Onu yakalay\u0131p getirdim. Birka\u00e7 g\u00fcn yan\u0131mda bir kutunun i\u00e7inde misafir ettim. Burada kald\u0131\u011f\u0131 s\u00fcrede hem yaralar\u0131n\u0131 ila\u00e7lad\u0131m, hem de besleyip sulad\u0131m. O bana, ben de ona al\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Daha sonra onu geldi\u011fi ortama b\u0131rakmam gerekti\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm. \u00d6n\u00fcne de biraz yem d\u00f6kerek onu, biraz \u00f6nce yem d\u00f6kt\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm yere b\u0131rakt\u0131m. D\u00f6kt\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm yeme \u00f6nce ser\u00e7eler, sonra g\u00fcvercinler, kumrular gelmeye ba\u015flad\u0131. Ben her g\u00fcn bakkaldan iki ekmek al\u0131yor, onlar\u0131 k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck ufalay\u0131p, oraya d\u00f6k\u00fcyorum.
Parkta buldu\u011fum g\u00fcvercin, bana ku\u015flara yem vermeyi \u00f6\u011fretti. Ben de bunu seve seve yapmaya ba\u015flad\u0131m. Kanad\u0131n\u0131n k\u0131r\u0131k olu\u015fundan, di\u011fer ku\u015flar gibi sa\u011fl\u0131kl\u0131 u\u00e7am\u0131yordu. Bu y\u00fczden ona yelpesek diyordum. Bug\u00fcn yelpese\u011fi g\u00f6remedim\u201d dedi ve ge\u00e7mi\u015finden anlatmaya ba\u015flad\u0131.
\u201c\u00c7ocuklu\u011fumuzda sapanla ku\u015flar\u0131 kovalard\u0131k. Kimini vurur kimini yaralard\u0131k. Her y\u0131l incirler olgunla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131nda k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck ama \u00e7ok ya\u011fl\u0131 incir ku\u015flar\u0131 gelirdi. Bunlardan her g\u00fcn be\u015f on tane vururduk.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Hele av mevsiminin bereketli ge\u00e7mesi i\u00e7in, b\u00fcy\u00fcklerimizden \u00f6\u011frendi\u011fimiz: \u201cE\u015f getir, be\u015f getir \/ Ya\u011fl\u0131 ya\u011fl\u0131 d\u00f6\u015f getir\u201d tekerlemesi belle\u011fimize iyice kaz\u0131nm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.
Teleklerin ya\u011fl\u0131 kokusu yay\u0131l\u0131nca, \u00e7ok av vurulaca\u011f\u0131na inan\u0131rd\u0131k. O zamanlar sapanlar\u0131 elimize ald\u0131k m\u0131, o bah\u00e7e senin, bu bah\u00e7e benim, karatavuk, sar\u0131 b\u00fclb\u00fcl, arapb\u00fclb\u00fcl\u00fc, ba\u015ftankara\u2026 ne g\u00f6r\u00fcrsek onu avlard\u0131k. Yaln\u0131z sar\u0131 b\u00fclb\u00fcl ve g\u00f6kte
semah d\u00f6nen ar\u0131 ku\u015flar\u0131 y\u00fckseklere kondu\u011fundan, onlardan az vururduk. \u015eimdilerde \u00e7ocuklukta yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131n b\u00fcy\u00fck bir hata oldu\u011funa inand\u0131m. \u00c7ok pi\u015fman\u0131m, belki \u015fu anki duruma o ku\u015flar\u0131 vurdu\u011fumdan d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm. Benim sefil yelpese\u011fim, bir sapan ta\u015f\u0131na hedef oldu gelmedi\u201d diyerek s\u00f6ylendi. \u0130\u015finin geri kalan\u0131n\u0131 bitirmek i\u00e7in yerine oturdu.
K\u0131sa bir sessizlikten sonra yine konu\u015fmaya ba\u015flad\u0131.
\u201cAaah ye\u011fenim! Ben bir zamanlar hayat dolusu birisiydim; insanlara i\u015f ekmek verir, d\u00fc\u015fenin elinden tutard\u0131m. Bir kere tekerin ters d\u00f6nmeyiversin. Teker tersine d\u00f6nmeye ba\u015flay\u0131nca, kim dost, kim d\u00fc\u015fman, ancak o zaman anl\u0131yorsun \u2018Hanya\u2019y\u0131 Konya\u2019y\u0131\u2019\u2026 O zaman da tav\u015fan yamac\u0131 ge\u00e7mi\u015f oluyor.
\u0130\u015flerim ters gidince at\u00f6lyem kapand\u0131. \u00c7evremdeki i\u015f, ekmek, verdi\u011fim insanlar birer iki\u015fer da\u011f\u0131ld\u0131lar. Sonunda e\u015fimde \u00e7ocuklar\u0131m da terk etti. Ben insanlardan hep k\u00f6t\u00fcl\u00fck, ac\u0131mas\u0131zl\u0131k, ihanet g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Fakat ne \u015fu duvar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnde yem yiyen ku\u015flardan, ne de \u00e7ocuklardan, hi\u00e7bir zarar g\u00f6rmedim.\u201d<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
\u0130\u015fyerimizin de\u011fi\u015fmeyen birer par\u00e7alar\u0131 gibiydik. Her g\u00fcn ayn\u0131 ki\u015fi, ayn\u0131 e\u015fya, ayn\u0131 y\u00fczlerdi g\u00f6rd\u00fcklerimiz. De\u011fi\u015fen tek \u015fey, her maa\u015f\u0131n gelmesiyle \u00e7o\u011fumuzun gelecek ay\u0131 nas\u0131l getiririz kayg\u0131s\u0131ndan k\u0131zaran, elmac\u0131k kemiklerimizin haliydi. Ayba\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n gelmesini hi\u00e7 istemezdik.Biz bordro mahk\u00fbmlar\u0131, her ay kesintisiz yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z, bankalar\u0131n kredi kartlar\u0131n\u0131 su ve elektrik faturalar\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6demekti. Hem \u00f6dentilerimi \u00f6demek, hem ba\u015fka i\u015flerimi g\u00f6rmek […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":2221,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[26],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.yasamsanat.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2220"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.yasamsanat.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.yasamsanat.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.yasamsanat.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.yasamsanat.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2220"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.yasamsanat.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2220\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2222,"href":"https:\/\/www.yasamsanat.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2220\/revisions\/2222"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.yasamsanat.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/2221"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.yasamsanat.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2220"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.yasamsanat.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2220"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.yasamsanat.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2220"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}